Tzoli's Red Leather Journal

16th Day of the Middle of Darkfall, Blooday

I was awak til veree errlee in the mornin watchin Sil sleep. She sed she was scared of sleepin alon. She changd lots. She sed her confadinss was takin frum her. I dunno, I dun realy unnerstand it all. In the small light of Balor rizin, I sneekd out givin her a few coins so she dint woree so much bout that stuff.

I went into the woods and sat by the pahnd pond. I feld asleep by it as Cymur startid to rize. I had a dreem. It wunt scary, but it made my hart feel strange whin I wokd up.

I dreemd that I was on a big feeld with lots of peepul. I had my spear and I was grippin it real tite in my hands. Evaryone was killin each other, but I dint git hurt. Nothin could touch me. Peepul tryd to kill me, but ther blad woud cach air. I had lots of blood on me, but nun of it was mine. I coud tast salt in my mouth frum other peepuls blood. It made me happy.

I killd and killd. Peepul dyin evarywhere. I walkd over lims and felt bons brek under my feet. I felt a big smile on my face. Big one, not like how I usalee smile, a sloppy grin, filled up with anger and a crazee joy. It felt....realy realy good. I killd and killd. Peepul dyin all around me. I stod on a mountin of corpsis. Whin evaryone was dead I laffd and laffd. Loud crazy laffin. I felt like a warrier. I liked it. I liked it lots.

I lookd at the sky and it was red. A bright red, jus how I like. I lookd at the feeld and it was red. I lookd at my hands and they was red. Evarythin was red...red like blood. I liked it.

Then I lookd down at the faces. They was all my frends and famlee. I dint see who I was killin as I killd them. I saw nuthin, I onlee felt the joy of battle. The grass turnd to red strings and wrapd me up, holdin me in one place. The peepul came to life and woudnt look at me. I laffd, I dunno. I laffd frum deep inside.

The red strings held me in place and in the red sky, Cymur set, leavin me alon with Balor. The clouds in the sky swirld round Balor and turnd into a lissert. The lissert lookd at me and smiled. I never seen a lissert smile bafer, but this one did. It smiled, then opind its big mouth and struk me with litning that shot from out its throte. It dint hurt nun.

Then the blue sun seemed to rise agin, follad by the red moon. Evarythin was red cept Balor and the lissert. Even I turnd red. I was held by red threds. The sun turnd into a man and the moon turnd into a woman and they held hands and walkd to me. I coudnt move attall.

They each kissd my cheek, lickin blood frum it. I felt my hart stop. I guess I died in my dreem, but it dint hurt nun. I was pulld into the ground by the red strings and the man and woman seemd to fly away frum me. I herd myself callin for them...I calld loud as I coud, but it seemd only like a wispur. "Mommy! Daddy!" I calld to them, but they were gone and I was also gone, in the ground.

I wokd up then.

I felt verree strange. I always have strange dreems whin I sleep durin the day I think. I shoud stop fallin asleep then I think. I dun usalee think nuthin of dreems, but sumthin told me I shoud write this one down bafer it faded away frum me.

Posted by Tzoli at October 14, 2004 02:51 PM