Today manee bad things happind. But also sum good things. At least I think good. Rylian and Sil was tryin veree hard to be nice to eech other just for my sake. They think that they are like oil and water. It is kinda funnee cuz they both are veree much the same, even what is inside. I try to make them mor niss to each other and they try, both of them and I no they are my good good frends.
But, bad things always happin. Always. Just when I think I am doin good with myself and how things are, sumthin bad happins. First it was evarything with my head, then it was sumthin I should have stopped with it. The gard cam for Sil. I told her to run away, run away. I herd the gard in my hed. I herd them makin plans and goin fer her. They was going to git me and Rylian also, I no it. I told her to run, but coudnt esplain why I new she shoud. But she ran anaway. Rylian and I ran away also. I was veree scared. My guts was twistin all around.
I am a burdin to the peepul around me. They lov me and care fer me, but they slow down fer me. I hate that. I hate that feelin of bein hevee to peepul. I no I am not week like they think I am. I dunno. Mebbe I am week. I kinna do magic and I have a hard time unnerstandin things. But I dunt think I am week.
Rylian and I went diff'rint ways. It was my idea cuz I dint wanna be a burdin. I ran to the south outpost. I stayed in the inn tryin to calm down. I was hurtin and scared, all the pain on my insides frum aches of the hart. Sumone cam into the inn, but I coudnt see then, only hear them. They were as scared as me. They sed they saw a murder. A hor'ble murder. I kept thinking it was Sil, even bafer thah lady 'sed' that the girl had a scar on her face. My hart was gunna stop I thot. Sumwhere in my hed, I thot I new it was her. I coudnt cry tho. I coudnt shout and screem and ask for mor. It was so hard. So veree hard.
I ran away, I ran and cryd. I tryd to fite them teers, but I coudnt. I coudnt attall.
Posted by Tzoli at November 1, 2004 04:16 PM