I think mebbe Darkfall is finlee ending. It is not rainee so much no more and I git to see balor rise more oftin in the morning. That is good. I am doing my stretchis and praktising my kiks and punchis. I am trying veree hard to get stronger and better.
I am not sleeping much. I close my eyes and feel the screems and pain. It hurts me deep down in plasis I did not no I had. It hurts like an old hurt, like a leg I lost or sumthing. I want to be strong. Evary morning I do the exsercisis my mum tawt me. The screems in my hed help me to keep attit.
I wish I coud think of a way to force these things I see of my brothers and sisters into the heds of the peepul who did it. I wish I coud projekt the pain and suffering into their heds and harts and make them feel and unnerstand evarything they did to us. I am trying to learn a way to do that. I want to learn to force my feelings and thots and memerees onto others, that way whin I see one of those monsters, I can make them fall down with all the pain ever givin to my peepul. Pain for Pain, Blood for Blood as my mum woud say.
Posted by Tzoli at November 17, 2004 03:02 PM