Tzoli's Red Leather Journal

Blooday, 11th Day of the Beginning of Autumn

I think I hurt Sehki's feelings yestarday. He sed ther was a fite batween Gabreuhl and sumone. Sumone who sed she woud cut off her hed and give it to Melchior. That meens it was eethur Missus Nybrylla or Missus Venice. I was going to go and help them get out of trubals, but I was too late becuz I made a argumint with Sehki.

I told him if ther was gards, he shoud run away and I woud protekt him and give him time to run away. I do not think he wantid to do that. But I promissed him I would protekt him and he sed I shoud not go ther in the fist plass so he din't reelee want to and was onlee going becuz of me. So, I did not want him to get into trubals becuz of me. The only persin I shoud get into trubals shoud be myself, but I think my dum things get othars into bad plasis also.

I feel bad becuz I think I made Sehki cry. I did not meen to and it made me feel bad. I tryd to make him feel battar, but I do not no if I helped him. I think he had a meen familee and wen I was meen to him it made him hurt. I do not no. Mebbe he jus got hurt thinkin abot the past things. I do not like seeing my frends cry, it makes my hart hurt me. I do not like seeing anabody cry, it makes me feel bad and hevee. I try veree hard not to cry myself. I am a big girl now and I shoud not cry. I do not want a week hart, so I will not cry any more.

I think I need to try hardar with Sehki. He and me are the same in lots of ways. I think I need to try harder and be strongar and ... and I do not no wat else, but sumthing.