...turn around...
...don't...
...turn around.
The man in the shadows wispered at me. Of all the days to leev my hammar in my room. I wuz going to a piknik with the childrins at the Fallin Stars. I took the shortcut in the alley to git ther.
He did not reelee sneek up on me. I new he was ther. I do not no how, but I felt it. My hands tingled. And I was all the suddin redde fer battal. My hart thumpd all hevee like in me and I was... excitid. I am ashamed of that. I was excitid to fite.
He had a littal nife aginst my bak. I think he was trying to rob me. I do not no wat he wantid tho. I did not wait to hear him ask. I grabbd his rist and squeezd it. He was like a rag doll as I spun my leg into his ankles and made him fall to the ground, still holding his rist. I herd all the air blow out of him. I turnd and lookt at him.
He told me not to turn around, but then, I did. I saw him. I turnd around intending to punch hit throt in, but wen I saw him I coud not do that. It was a child. I think I broke his rist in my hand cuz wen I let go he cluched it to his chest. at a weerd angal. I felt giltee. I did not think, I just actid.
Then he spoke.
...bastard... you filthee queer bastard... how dare you...
I lookt at him and I felt nothing. My gilt went away cuz I saw his eyes and I new he woud have killt me. I wantid to step on his throt and crush him, but I did not. I got his nife and leend ovar him. I tryd my best to look like a big man cuz I sappose he did not reelize I was a woman until I leend ovar.
I smaked his cheek with my hand, not hard, gental like. I sed "My name is Tzoli Kita. Ramember it cuz next time I will not let you live." Then I squeezed his brokin rist and walkd away. He did not fallow me. I wished he did so I coud have let out all the anger I felt at him. In my hed I pictured myself crushing all the life frum him, then crushing his face with my hands til he was ded, then stabbing him ovar and ovar with his own nife... I thot of a millin ways to kill him in my hed.
By the time I got to the piknik, I did not feel like eeting. But I did and I smiled reel big fer all the childrins.
Aftar a littal bit, I fergot I was angry attall and my smile was reel.
Posted by Tzoli at May 26, 2005 01:28 PM