I went and got a pie today. It was a good pie, with appals. I like appals the best fer a pie. I wantid to share it with all of my frends, but Sehki went away. I think he was in a bad mood. He saw Gabreeul git killt. He was wearing her cloak. It lookt warm. He was veree mopee. I think he liked her lots evin tho she was a filthee heathin manipalater meanie face. I sappose you can not reelee help having feelings sumtimes. Pity is a strong feeling and she made peepul pity her.
When I herd she was dead, I felt sadness fer a momint. She was my frend fer a time aftar all. Or mebbe, I jus sed she was. I do not no if she reelee liked me attall. I do not no, I sappose if I go to Annwn, then I will no. Tho, I do not plan to go to Annwn wen I die. I plan to serve with Balor in His army. If I git strong anuff, then I no he will pik me.
I think abot Annwn lots latlee. I wundar if my mum is there... and Sil and Rylian and Mir-a and Makoto and James and Missus Lara and Niko and them boys I killt. I wundar if they are there and if they can see us down here. I wundar sumtimes if I went to Annwn if I woud want to come back. Wat if I died not in battal but with a big rock falling on me? or frum a sikniss? I woud not be picked fer Balor's Army then I do not think. If all of the peepul I love are ther, woud I want to come back? Death duz not bothar me, living I think is hardar. Death is easy. Simpal. I am scart of not dying in battal. I am half scart of the peepul who wait fer me in Annwn. Do they hate me? Are they sad? Do they want to come back?
I want a good death. A fast death. Balor rules ovar Death as well as Morhiag. I do not think it is the same type of Death tho. I think I want Balor's kind of death. Bloody and fast and fighting.
Sumtimes I think I can smell Annwn on the Streets of Telantha. Sumtimes I think Death... all kinds of death, Morhiag's and Balor's... is always on us like an hourglass running out. If you die bafer yer hourglass runs out, you come back, if not, you stay.
I do not worree abot things like that tho. Death is death and I will die one day. Mebbe evin one day soon. Mebbe in Death there is no suffering.
Posted by Tzoli at June 3, 2005 09:38 AM