I woke up in a strange plass today.
I ramembar my mum told me to rite evarything down so I do not fergit them. I try to rite down evarything i ramembar, but sumtimes I do not ramembar evarything. I always rite down stuff. This is what I ramembar.
I ramembar yelling at Cravik fer being hartliss. I ramembar yelling abot the childrins. I ramembar He,mo telling me it was my fault Binda was ded. I ramembar running away to my room. I ramembar thinking abot the childrin, then running to the Fallin stars plass to see if they was okay.
I ramembar blood. I ramembar darkniss.
I ramembar pain and hate and rage spilling out of me.
I ramembar the fasis of Jerrika and Jun and Pria all cut up and ded. I ramembar them screaming fer me. I do not no if that was reel tho. I ramembar their bodies cut into ribbins as they yelled, bodies twitching. I ramembar mostlyy blood and death.
I ramembar Venice a littal bit. Did I hurt her? Did I do sumthin bad? I ramembar a silver arrow peersing my hart.
I ramembar rain.
Othar then that, I do not no how I got here. I woke up in the towar in the play yard of the orfinadge. It took me a verree long time to figger out where I was. It was raining, cept I was dry. I was on one of the platforms between the layars. Blood was on me.
I ramembared the childrins all ded.
My hart ramembared pain and sadniss.
....and rage.
I saw a note on the sitee bord. It was in my hand riting but I do not ramembar making it. It was sined 'the hammer' but I do not sign my name that way. I always always use my full name. But it must have bin me. It was my riting. I wish I coud ramembar last nite. I wish I coud ramembar wat happined aftar the I found the childrins.
I will find venice. She will no. She is smart, she will help me. I hope I did not hurt her. I coud nevar fergive myself if I did that. Melchior woud be mad and I woud have made Him mad and sad.
I need to pray. I do not no wat to do, but I no I shoud pray.
Oh Gods... wat did I do? I have nevar lost so much time bafer. Nevar nevar. Evin wen they sed I killd them boys I did not ferget so much.
Balor Guide me, Melchior Fergive me.
Posted by Tzoli at June 8, 2005 08:47 PM