Taday I combed out my dredlocks becuz I coud not sleep. I wuz feelin awfal abot hurting Aubren and my tummy wuz rumbling and rumbling and rumbling cuz I was hungry all the time. I used up my monies gitting food fer Aubren. Now I have no more monies eksept wat is in the bank. But those monies are fer sumthing else. Fer my seecrit projekt. It is sumthin I am saving and saving fer and I will not use those coins until I have anuff fer it.
Combing out the dredloks kind of hurt. I used a big woodin pointy stik to get them out at first, then a big tooth comb, then a niss comb. My hair is icky. I washed and washed it, but then I ramembared that my hair is always icky and not niss and smooth like evaryone elsis. It feel like wires. I had fergottin that my hair is not niss or pretty like evaryones. Sumtimes I fergit how uglee I am. I try not to look at myself to much cuz evaryone else is so purty with nice light skin and smooth shiny hair. They have small nosis and pretty mouths and I am big and flat and uglee. I do not no why I combed out my hair frum the dredloks, but it took a long long time and I had nuthing to do.
I braidid my hair up and tied them up with sum of the bits of hair that fell out. I took a long long bath in hot watar and it was niss. My tummy hurts me and I got dizzy in the bath. I think mebbe my tummy hurt cuz of wher I got cut, but it is an inside hurt so I do not no reelee. It is a hungry hurt. My ribs is showing more then bafer. I poked at them and then I ramembared how I broke Aubren up with my hammar and I felt bad agin. I could also see my hip bones lots. My mussles are going away a littal bit I think. I think I am gittin evin skinniar. Mebbe if I can git anuthur job I can eat mor.
At leest no one sees how skinny I am now with the clothes I wer. No one notissis me turning into nuthing. I do not think they will notiss if I fade away into smoke eethur.
Posted by Tzoli at July 31, 2005 03:30 AM