Tzoli's Red Leather Journal

7 - The End of Spring, Morday

I have bin havin the same dreem evary day sinss i saw bjar agin. There is always so many voisis. They screem at me and showt bad things. I want them to shut up, to go away. I yell and swing my hammar, but there is nuthing ther in my dreems. Not evin smoke. I always wake up feeling like I am falling. That makes no senss. I do not ramembar what the voisis yell to me, but I no it hurts me.

That is anuff of that tho. Dreems it weerd things. I do not undarstand them.

Lat'lee it seems like evaryone is going all crazee arond me. Aubren, Lisenth (that is the Rat I lerned that...), thes peepul who talk abot the unspokin alowd. I do not no wat is goin on with evaryone. Aubren neerlee got brokin on me. I had to put him bak togethur. I think he wantid me to kill him. That hurt me mor then any of the magics he thru at me. Why is it wen peepul are going to brek they com to me?

I am not that smart. I try and try to make things rite, but I do not I can. I do not evin no wat rite is. Rite... Rong... all of them things are... hard. Peepul tell me diffrint things abot them. Wat one persin says is Rite, ahnuthur says is rong. It is veree confusing to me.

Oh well....

I got to make sum peepul happy I think. They wantid to heer a song frum Yarsin, so I sang fer them. It was in the Dragon's Head. I was on stage and evarything. I sang fer them and evaryone stared at me like I was pretty. It was niss to have peepul look at me like that. I do not sing good, but they likt my song. Then they wantid a storee so I told one. That was a good day. I got cheers and stuff. Sum of the peepul evin gave me coins.

I think I want to do that agin sum time. Mebbe aftar the Turnamint. no one has askt me nuthin abot it tho and that maks me sad. I need to try hardar. Git mor peepul to com and talk abot it. I want lots of peepul there. Lots and lots. I want balor to see I am trying hard to make peepul undarstand him. Lots of peepul are veree stupid abot Balor I think. I may not be smart, but I no lots abot Balor... I think.

Posted by Tzoli at August 22, 2005 07:31 PM