Tzoli's Red Leather Journal

4 - The Beginning of Summer, Elday

I am in the hospatal agin. I am not injuard or nuthin tho. Fedim wun let me leeve. He sed I am starving and have a malnutrishin. He sed I have to eet mor. I do eet. It is hard tho becuz I do not have manee monees. I do eet. I have sum bred and watar wen I got it. and I ate bafer the match in the turnamint. They do not no how manee coins food is cuz they can make food frum magic.

They sed I wuz to skinnee and that I had to stay and eet breds and water fer days an that I had to eet mor. How am I sapposd to eet mor if I hav no coins? I can not let peepul take care of me becuz I am a grown up now. Sinss I hav no famalee or a husbind, I have to take care of myself. It is hard to be a womin without a husbind I think. They do not undarstand her in the Hospatal cuz they is all men and hav good jobs and get manee coins.

Why does the Inn not pay me anuff to eet with? Pro'blee cuz I am always late and they take away coins fer it. And I give haf to the orfanige.

Lord Aanson sed I wantid to die. That is a filthy lie. He used sum facifal word fer it I do not no, but he told he ment that. Why woud I want to die? That is wrong. I told him not to tell Bjar. Bjar will jus worree and go out of his hed like always. Peepul think I am bad with my emoshins... BJar is worser 'en me. All ovar his fass. He has to much rite now. and... I am not importint.

The nursis are coming agin to make me eat mussy bred. They come evary few hours I think to make me eet littal bits.

Fedim sed the malnutioshin takes a long time to happin. If that is tru how come no one notissed bafer?