Tzoli's Red Leather Journal

21 - The End of Summer, Melday

I think I will aksept Morhion's proposal to me. I do not think I will do no bettar. his goddess Ylessa gave him tasks so she must want him to marry me. I think he will be a good husbind to me. he will not hurt me nun I do not think and he will take care of me like a good husbind.

But, sumthing in my hart screems at me No No No. But in my hed I no it is the best thing. I will wait to tell him until he has finished wat he has to do fer his Goddess. I do not want him to think he has to rush them fer me. I will wait becuz ...

I do not no why. But I feel like I shoud wait to tell him. My hed says I shoud just tell him, then he will be qwik to make himself good fer his Goddess. He loves me I think and he thinks I am purty. My hart is still hurting lots so mebbe that is why it says No No No to me.

Sumtimes I think I hate Bjar. And Rylian. And even Niko a littal bit. But I push thoz feelings down down down and ferget abot them. I hate that they hurt me so much. I hate Bjar and Rylian becuz they new they hurt me and do things anaway.

But still, I can not hate them so much. They just hurt me.

I wish I coud say they did not meen it. But they new wat they did so they must meen it.

Morhion will not hurt me. But I think I will hurt him.

Posted by Tzoli at October 18, 2005 01:42 PM