Tzoli's Red Leather Journal

13 - The Beginning of Autumn, Melday

I rote a song fer Aanson. And also Morhion I think. It is a good song and I want to share it with them. I think I want to sing it to Aanson first and then Morhion. I do not no if I will be abal to tho.

I did a bad thing. I killt a boy.. he was doing bad things to wemmin. he grabbed their private bits and then he pulled out his bits and waggled them about. He made me angry. He tried to do sumthing bad to Lee-o I think. I punchd him hard. In the gut, but he did nuthing. he kept doing that thing. Then Lee-o smackt him with her staff. And the othar girl smashed a tankard on his hed. Lee-o tryd to arrest him, but he wiggled away and tryd to grab her agin. No, that is the rong word. I lernd the rite word. He tryd to Molest her agin.

Lee-o sed to smash him to make him stop. So I smashd him. I smashd him and his head bits went evarywhere. I did not meen to smash him that much. But in myhart I wantid to. Mebbe my hed and my hart did not talk rite. I my hart I wantid to crush him and smash and smash. BUt I no in my hed not to do that becuz they put you in jail fer that and I do not want to go to jail. Not at all.

BUt I killt him. I am a monstar. I saw sumone run away frum me with feer on them and in them. Lee-o just stard and the othar girl, she was drunk. A man was ther and he sed the boy got less then what he daservd. I do not no. I am a monstar. It wuz an aksidint to hurt him so much. But my hart says it wuz not. My hart says I wantid to do it. My blood was hot and I had angar in me.

It is late and my hed is hurting me. Hurting so veree much. I do not want my hedaches to be bak. But I think they are. It is hard to make words now, it is blurry. I want to sleep, but it hurts. I need air.