Taday I made a new frend. His name is Fariz. He was veree niss and frednlee and evarything. He was also veree glad that I was niss too. He had not manee niss peepul bafer and that made him sad I think. I think we will be good frend cuz we are lots alike. He looks like he is abot my age too. Mebbe he is a littal youngar, I dunno, pro'blee abot the same. Nezt time I see him I will ask fer shur.
I made lots of monees taday cuz it was payday and I went fishin in my time off cuz Krallip was off doin sumthin and coud not train with me. I think he is trying to get into the Gard. I dunno, he jus sed he had busniss to take care of. I had a day off, so I went fishing and it was good. I made sum ekstra coins. I caht lots of big fishis. I got sum niss food with my monies.
I talkt to Jirand taday alsah. He has a house now. I am jeliss he has one cuz I alsah want one. I am saving and saving, but I dont think I'll evar make anuff monees to have a house. Evin a cheep icky one in the poor sechin of town. Evaryone I no makes so much monees. They all sew or do neet things with lethur. I dunno howtah do anee of that stuf. Makoto is rich and Jirand must be rich alsah. I git a littal embarissed cuz I am so poor. I have to save my monees fer food evin. Its hard cuz I am always hungree. I eet and then I git hungree agin. It worser whin I am trainin hard.
Mebbe I kin git anathur job and save up for both a house and food. That woud be good.
I hav bin workin lots and lots latlee. I seem to work mor and mor evaryday. I train the same time evaryday alsa. Mostlee I just sleep less. Evaryday I hate sleep mor and mor and mor. The nitemars screem in my hed louder evaryday and evarynight. Sumtimes they hit me when I work, tho, luckee fer me, most of the time they happin onlee when I sleep.
There are peepul looking fer peepuls like me latlee. They say Melchior sent them, but I dunno. Mebbe we are not sapose to hide no mor if Melchior is sending peepul to look for us. It is veree confusing to me. I did dum things and peepul figure out what I am and it makes the others angry with me. I dunno why Melchior gave this to me if I always do dum things. I try so hard, but I never feel good anuff whin I stand next to all of the othars. They are strong and smart and always no wat to do. I am week and dum and always confused. At leest I am honist tho. At leest I do not wanna hurt my brothers and sisters with names and crule hurtfal thots. At leest I nevar say nuthin I dont meen.
Melchior told me to be honist, I try veree hard to make him happy with me. I try to always live up to His expektashins of me, but I think it makes the othars veree mad. I dont think they like me. I think they onlee put up with me cuz they got to.
It makes me veree lonlee.
I did lots of work taday cuz I got mah splint takin offah me a hole day erlee. It was good to have it off. My leg dont feel so stiff no more. THe nursis rub on a lina lenimi balm to make the musal git unstiff. They sed it will help to make the brusiz go away fastar inside the bone or something. I dunno. I no my leg dont hurt no mor and that is good. It is a littal week still and I have to do lots of stretchiz so it dont git all stiff. I am workin extra hard to git strong agin. I doubaled my workout in the mornins bafer work.
Makoto and his friend seem to be gitting bettar. I dunno. I dunno why the Veks woud attack him. I dunno if they was evin reelee Veks or if he just thot they was. If they was Veks I need to no more abot them so I can kill them. I dunno how I will kill them, but I have to so they do not attack my frends agin.
I feel helpliss aginst all of them Veks. I do. I nevar no were they are or what I shoud do. I want to make them all ded. I want to make them suffer fer wat they did to be and my brothars and sistars. If I coud I'd smite em with the fire of a millin suns and cut em up and throw them into acid. One day I'll be strong anuff. One day I'll be strongar. I promissed Melchior I woud.
I finded out taday that Makoto and his speshell love as he callt her was attakt by a Vek. I wundar how they knowd it was a Vek attackin them? They sed she had auburn hairs and was veree pale. I dunno wat colar auburn is, but they sed it was kinda brownish reddish blondish. I dunno what colar that is, but it sounds kinda niss.
When they first startid talking abot the Vek, I got sah angry I coud not evin stay there. I wannid to smash sumthin up. All I coud heer in my hed was angry thots abot killing Veks and makin them pay....and they was my own thots, not othar peepuls.
I went fer a walk out aftar that to the gardins cuz I coud onlee be angry fer so long. I thot if I walkt with the flowers then I woud get the angar out of my hed. It dint work. My hed got madder and madder. I sat down in the brokin gazebo and jus kept gittin angryer and angryer. It was like the mad thing insidah me was jus wantin me to kill and kill and kill. Aftar a while it dint evin think abot Vek no mor, just redniss. Evarythin was red all arond me and it was like I was floating in the plass where Melchior tookt me, eksept is was red and not white.
I dun ramember much, but I ramember lyin on a big brokin log and starin at the sky, watching Balor set ovar the wall. Fer a seccind I thot I coud grab one of the pale blue beems and float away on it. Whin I tryd I saw my hand and it was bruised and bloody. I think I brokt a nucal. I spose it coud have bin worser, I coud have punch sumthin that wunt alreddee brokin. I wish I coud ramember punchin anathin attall.
Onlee three mor days till I git the splint off of my leg!!!! Yayyy!!! I will be veree glad whin I kin git this thingy off of me. It makes me crazee. I hobbal all arond evarywhere and its ickee. It makes me slow slow slow slow. I hate being slow. It makes me feel clumsee. My leg do not hurt so much no more so I think it is mostlee bettar. I am glad them heelars helpt it git bettar fastar. They was veree niss to me and it only cost me like half a weeks pay fer it all. I think they feeld sorree fer me cuz I hurt it mor pertekting the city frum a demmin and they went ezee on the cost fer me.
I got me a shiny new pair of brasers. They are leather with metal bits. They cover up lots of my uglee scars on my arms. Mebbe without them scars I will be purty. If I git sum gloves, no one will see the uglee hands I got whin I was all burnt up. I alsah got a sheeth fer the sword Missus Nybrylla gave to me. It is a good sheeth, but it needs colars on it. It is a boring boring gray. I tryd to have them make me a red one, but they sed no. I think I will paint up my sheeth red with cloth dye and stuff. I no lots of taylors so I bet they have cloth dye. If I have a red sheeth, then it will be neet and stylish. It will match me.
I dint have to work taday sah I walkt arond the gardins. It was niss. All the flowars was blooming and colarfal. I love colars. Red is my favrit. There was lots of red flowars. I went frum the gardins to the forist and found mor flowars. I pikt sum of the red ones and yellah ones to make a bundle of them. I think I will give the bundle to Rylian. I have not seen him in a while, but I heerd Nybrylla got arrestid and I'll bet he needs cheering up.
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I think I have to try to get Missus Nybrylla out of jail. I cannot let no one kill her evin if she did do all them bad things like peepul sed. She is one of my sisters and evin if she is not niss, I have to save her cuz that is wat Melchior woud want I think. Mebbe not. I dunno. We are spost to pertekt each othar I no, so I rekkin I can not let her git hurt evin by the Gard.
Mebbe the othars will help me to. It woud be good fer all of us to work tagethur. I'll have to try and find them I think. I tryd prayin to Melchior fer sum guidance, but I think he was buzee with sumone else, hopfally Missus Nybrylla. I dunno how to start res-q-ing her, but I no I shoud try. I hope the othars can help me to figger out a way. THey are lots smarter then me and will be abal to help mor.
I think Missus Nybrylla got caht cuz she was hurt frum the demmin that landid on the gazebo still. I hope they treet her good in jail. Sil sed jail was horbal. She sed they was meen an they killt her there and stuff. I do not no why they woud do that attall, but I hope they do not do it to missus Nybrylla. Them Gards must be meen peepul. I do not like meen peepul.
Now that I work, I notassd that I do not see peepul as much as I did bafer. Its kinda sad to me I think. I met this one persin at the Bar in the bounty and he was niss an all, but he smelt bad. Not like regalar bad, but like he nevar tookt no bath evar. It was ickee. I tryd veree hard to be niss, but he had bad mannars and ate with his mouth opin and evarythin. It was gross.
My mum woud smak me if I had mannars like that. he made sure I always was propar like a good girl. I had to no how to sit and hold my niff and fork and spoon and evarything. I evin had to no how to hold the glass rite. It is sumthin I do now and do not evin think abot cuz its the only way I no to do things.
I notissd lots of peepul do not have no mannars. They are dirty and smell bad an stuff alsah. I wash myself evaryday if I can. I always keep my hands and face cleen espeshellee. I hate having dirty hands, its ickee. Mebbe that is why I am good at my job. I like havin things neet and cleen. Evaryone evar has taht me to be neet and cleen and its hard to evin think of a diffrint way to be. My mum, the ladees at the plass, now the hed ladee at my job...evaryone.
Taday I mostlee workt. I scrubbd the floors of the bounty to make them reel cleen. It was kinda fun. I am good attit. Aftar I was don, I restid in front of the fire and stretchd out my leg. It wunt neer as hurting taday as it was bafer. That is good, it meens it is gittin bettar.
Makoto invitid me onto a piknik taday so he coud git tah no me battar. He sed he woud mak sur abot food cuz he cooks good. I sed I woud bring a pie. I like pie. I will try to find a appal pie cuz it is the bestist kind of pie. Makoto was veree nerviss abot askin me to the park fer a piknik. I dunno why. Its weerd. We aer frends an it is okay fer frends to go plasis tagethur.
I think mebbe I will try to find Sky and invit her to com alsah. Mebbe Missus Lairah as well. And Relik and Jirand Then it will be a good piknik. I wunt invite Nybrylla or Rylian cuz then it woud not be fun attall cuz evaryone woud argue an be all meen to each othar. BUt I think The peepul I sed bafer woud be good all tagethur on a piknik. I wish Sil was still here cuz then I woud bring her. I miss Sil lots. I wish she dint run away to the outpost. It makes me sad that she ran away and then dissapeered.
Mebbe she was dissapeerd the same way I was. She sed she talkt to Gods bafer she was killt. Mebbe they dissapeered her away like Melchior tookt me away into white nothings. I feel bad fer her if she is, cuz then I bet she is lonlee. Being lonlee is the worstist thing evar. I hate it. I wish I had like a millin billin frends cuz then I'd nevar be lonlee. If I tried harder and was bettar, then I woud have more frends and peepul woud like me fer reels insted of fake like they have in their heds. And like Melchior says.
I notissed sumtimes Makoto looks at me funee. He looks and looks and looks, like he is trying to see inside of me. He is not like me though so he cannot see it. At leest I dunt think so. I tried calling into him, but I do not think he herd. He is not like me attall. If he was like me, he woud no why I do not sleep hardlee atall no more. I hate sleep. Sleep is worser than being awake and fighting demmins.
Demmins at leest look like demmins, You no wat you are fiting. With Veks you nevar no. Veks is eval in ways that are not reel to most peepul. They are so eval they do not evin no what eval is. At leest I think so. One day I hope Melchior gives me that sword so I can kill lots of Veks. That woud be good. I woud evin go into jail fer it and be all alone. It woud be worth it I think...unless I had babees, then I woud want to always be with them so no one hurt them, but I do not think I will evar have babees cuz I am a virgin.
Oh well. If I have to choose, I choose killing Veks so they can nevar evar take babees frum me or mine agin. If I come back as a dryth agin, then I will have babees in freedom if I kill all the Veks now.
Makoto gave me a presint. I saw a bottal of the wine my mum woud make and sell. It was the speshell appal wine, not the regular appal sidar she woud sell. I saw it and I wantid sum. I had fergottin that she made wine and sold it until I saw the bottal. Its funnee to see a bottal with your name on it. 'Kita of Yarsin Reserve Apple Wine, year 55' it sed. I ramember whin she sold it at the markits and woud have crates and crates shippt with the caravan that came to the farm aftar harvist festival. That and grain and barley and sidar and appal praserves and lots of stuff. I fergittid how much stuff we always sold aftar the harvist cam in and we did stuff.
I do not ramember so well making all the things, but I ramember the caravans. I ramember always having wine with food and always going to the markits and buying things and my mum talking to othar mens about selling stuffs. I ramember the Tir man who woud some with the Virothian-Urgat Caravan and the Tyeni man who came with the Lesshra-Llyaue Caravan evary year. I ramember how the Tyeni man stared at me with eyes buggin out and askt my mum if I was good fer anathing and how she woud glare at him with the eval eye to make him shut up abot me. I ramember the Tir man gived me mapal candies frum Urgat and sweetined ginseng root tah chew on. He was niss to me and my mum.
Mostlee I ramembered the smell of my mum. She always smellt like appals and wheat. She woud rap me up in her arms and pull her shawl round me and I would sit in her arms and breeth in her smell. She smelt like home to me. I ramembered that and I wantid to cry cuz I had fergittid it til I tastid the wine that Makoto gaved me. It made me sad that I coud fergit how my mum smelt and evin saddar that I coud not ramember her face. I am a bad dahtar. I am a bad girl who can not ramember her mum.
I finlee got out of the hospatal. It is good to do sumthin othar then sit there in the boring boring boring room. I workt for a littal bit and it was good. It made my leg a littal sore, but thats ok.
I bin spending lots of time with Relik latlee. Rather he has bin spending lots of time with me. It seems no mattar were I am, he finds me. Course I have bin in the Dukes Bounty lots latlee and it is a commin place to com to. I have alsa seen Makoto lots latlee. He works at the same plass as me, eksept he works in the bar and I cleen rooms. I spend most of my time off of work in the bar or the commin room resting. Whin my leg is bettar, I will train more. Rite now I do not want the heelars to yell at me no mor. I hate peepul yelling at me.
The heelars say I shoud be abal to take off the splint in a week. My leg is sore, but I think its mostlee frum doing nuthing. I want to practiss my eksersizis agin and stretch and train agin with Krallip and Missus Lairah. I need to practiss my mace and with teh sword.
Missus Lairah taht me to hold a sword battar. Sumthing with chikkees. I do not ramember no mor. I do not ramember wat she taht me no mor. I hope she is not mad at me for fergitting. I want to git battar at the sword, then mebbe Melchior will give me the one he showd to me. I want it so I can kill Veks.
Taday is my last day in the hospatal. The Heelars sed I coud leeve tamarow. I am glad. The hospatal is veree boring. Lots of peepul did com an vizit me tho. It was niss of them.
Jirand cam taday an we talkt for a wile. He sed he thot I was ded. Kinda funee if you ask me. I aint nevar bin ded bafer. I no lots of peepul who have tho. Sumtimes I think if I die, Morhiag or Balor wunt let me bak. I've dun lots of bad things and I think they woud keep me for ther own. When I killt them boys it was an aksident, but I still must hav done it like them preests sed I did. Evaryone hatid me aftar that. I wish I coud ramember tho. I think that is wat makes me bad. I do bad things but I do not ramember them. It like I go away frum mahself.
Makoto alsa cam to see me. He evin mad me food! He brot me fish with herbs. It was veree good. I think mebbe I shoud lern how to cook. Wifes are suposd to cook good I think. My mum cookd reel good and evaryone loved her. She was alsa veree purty tho. I wish I was purty like her. I wish my hair was smooth and shinee. I can hardlee ramember her face, but I have the pikture of her in pencil colers that raminds me. Mebbe I shoud lern to cook. If i coud cook, then I woud be a bettar wife and then I coud find sumone to be my husbind evin tho I dunt havah dowree to give them no mor.
I am agin in the hospatal. Them Doctars say I have to rest my bone so it gits bettar. Bleh. Boring. This is verree boring.
Missus Laira was alreddee here and that was good. She sed she broke her ribs and stuff. She lookt not veree good. Her voyss was quiet alsah. I hope she gits bettar soon. I gived her a cookee and sum flowars I had. Relik alsah came and talkt with us.
Peepul rellee onlee seem to come an see me at nite. Durin the day evaryone works or sumthing I gess. It is boring in the days. Sinss I dont hardlee sleep, I have lots of hours to sit and think in. Mostlee I think abot Rylian and Melchior and killing Veks. I dunno. Days seem lots longer now.
Taday I faht a gret big flyin demmin. It wuz reelee reelee big. It had wings and flied around. It threw a big rok at gard men and killt them all. They got all splaterd inta the grownd. It was veree scaree. It had big claws and teeths. I prayd to Balor and Melchior to help me and Makoto and Stylite and Lairah and Nybrylla and Relik to kill it. Lairah, Nybrylla and Relik all got hurtid up and stuff. In the end fiting it, it was just me and Stylite and Makoto. My leg hurtid me lots, but I tried veree veree hard to fite the demmin anaway cuz my frends needid me. I got lukee and the demmin never evin tocht me.
We did real good tho, cuz we defeetid it! I prayed to Balor to guide my wepin to hit it and I did. I crushed it with my mace. One time it hit Stylite erel reel hard and I got angry and yelled attit and crushed its ribs, or I think they was ribs, I dunno. Demmins are wierd. Whin I did that it did not git back up, but it made some hard wet breethy sonds. I think it was gunna die reel soon. I wannid it to suffer fer hurting Lairah and evaryone, but Makoto stabbed it agin and Stylite cut off its hed with his big axe. Ther was more of them flyin demmin things in the town. I coud heer screemin all arond the streets. I think one was killing peepul in the north cuartar.
Cuz I did put the monstar down so it dint git back up, sum gard man sed I coud have the hart of the creetur. I dint no wat to do with the hart, but I tookt it anaway. I dacidid to give the hart in sacrafice to Balor cuz he must hav helpt us in battle to kill the monstar. I dunno how to sacrafice things, but I found a preest who helpt me. We sed prayers to Balor and then burnt the hart all up. Aftar We finished, I suddenlee thot that it woud have bin bettar to wate til sunrise. Oh well.
I dacidid I am gunna buy armer. Stylite had good armer an thah first time he got hit by the demmin, it dint hardly hurt him attall. If I had armer, then if a demmin got me, it woudnt hurt me neether. It feeld good to pertekt my frends. I wanna do it mor and mor. I need to git strongar I think. Lots strongar.
Aftar the battle I got to wondaring why sah manee demmins all attakt at the same time. I think mebbe sumone planned evarything so thah gards had to much to do. I dunno. Its a sillee Idea...sumone controling all the demmins.
Taday I met lots and lots of new peepul. I met Makoto and Teff and... well, I ferget who else. Oh well. Makoto is veree niss to me. But sumtimes he gets a lital too close and stares. Its weerd. He is frum far away so I think peepul were he is frum are jus like that.
Me and Makoto talkt fer a reel long time. I dunno what all abot, but it was just stuff. He told me abot his mum who soundid lots like my mum. They soundid almost the same, it made me wundar if mebbe they was ralatid er sumthin. Mebbe they was both fallahers of Balor and that is why they was the same. That coud be it alsah. He also wants lots of the same things as me. Childrins and famlee and stuff like that.
Teff kept on trying to make me buy food frum him. I dint have anuff golds tho. Soon I will git payd for workin tho. It will be good I think. Havin a job is good. I work reel hard attit. I wanna do a good job and make all the peepul happee whin I clean up the rooms.
I almost made a mistak taday. I accidentaly sed sumthin aftar hearin a thot cuz it got me thinkin bout that thot. I sed sumthin without neven thinkin abot it. Lucky fer me, he thot it was coinsidense. I was raleeved. I hate when I do dum things. I need to be mor carfal abot stuff like that. I have to try harder and think mor.
I went to the Duke's Bounty Inn to chek on my job. They sed I start at the begining of the week. That is good, cuz my leg still hurts a lital bit. To be honist, it hurts lots of bits, but it is bettar then bafer and that is good. The heelar rapt up my leg with the splint and lots of bandigis, so the bottom part don't move about nun. They gived me a lital cane to help walk with, but they sed not to use it to much cuz I shoud keep my leg strong.
They put more magics on my leg bafer I went and sed I shoud com bak evaryday bafer work starts and it will be lots bettar whin I start up.
I went arond town taday lookin fer my frend, but I coud not find no one. It was like evaryone in thah whole city was gone. Whin I thot abot it, I dint see Sky the hole time I was in the hospatal and that made me sad. I think mebbe I made her mad at me. She is frends with that big skrel man Adun and he dont like me nun I dont think. He problee dunt want her arond me no mor cuz I am a wikkid persin to him. I wishd she cam to see me, but I spose she is buzee now that they hav a plag cur to give to peepul.
I also hant seen Jirand or Stylite or no one. Onlee Mir-a and Rylian. It was veree boring staying in the hospatal. I sang lital bored songs to mahself. Itsah good thing there wernt no one like me round cuz they woudah herd reelee stupid stupid stupid songs filling up my hed and ther hed.
I hav startid prayin mor. Evary morning I pray to Balor like my mum taught me, then evary nite I pray to Melchior cuz I think I shoud. He is niss to me and helps me unnerstand things whin I am confuzzled up. And I am confuzzled up lots and lots. He helps me figger out lies and truths and whin peepul aint niss to me. He tells me whin I shount be with sumone cuz they are gunna hurt me. I wundar if he nos fates like Balor does? I think Mebbe he nos harts mostlee and Balor nos destinees, but them to things is kinda thah same. Mebbe they talk with each othar and both help me out. That woud be niss cuz they no lots and lots, stuff evin Mir-a coudn't unnerstand and she is the smartist persin I no. Gods is veree smart and see things in ways that make lots of senss to me whin they ekspain it all out.
Mebbe I reelee am ment fer sumthing mor then this. Mebbe I reelee do have a hier purpiss that they want me to do.
I took lital Jerrica bak to the ladees yestarday. I spent the day ther with them and helpd with the new childrins. It was good practiss fer my new job. I mad beds and cleend the floors and stuff like that. That is wat maids do. I am sposto lern how to make peepul happee in their room by keeping it tidy.
I stayd til aftar dinnar and told all the childrins storees. It was niss. Ther was lots of lital childrins there. Most of them seemd lik they was for or mebbe five. On speshellee lital girl sat on my nee. She had blond hair in twin tails and green eyes. She feld asleep on my nee (my good nee, not my brokin leg nee), leening on my chest. It was veree sweet. Whin I was don tellin storees I put her into bed and tukt her in good. It mad me feel warm on the insid of me. Fer a momint I wannid to cry, but I dint.
One of the ladees was watchin me. She sed I coud com back evary nite to tell storees and help out. I sed I would com evaryday aftar I was dun with work. It mad me happee to think I coud see them all evaryday. Mebbe I coud make them all happy. I woud like that veree much.
I am gunna hed ovar ther now. I wundar what storee I will tell them today. I hope it is a good one.
Jerrica and Ranit came bak to vizit me taday. They sat on my bed agin and we talt abot home. Jerrica stays with the same ladees I stayd with. Littal Ranit stay with her mum. Ranit is like me, she dont have no pa that she evar new. She is doing lots bettar, her chikkin lumps are all gon now, and she is going home with her mum taday. She wantid to vizit me bafer she went home. That made me all happee.
Jerrica gits to go home on the sam day as me. I sed I woud take her bak to the ladees and stuff. She sed she feld off the laddar whin she was piking fruits frum the gardin. I told her I did that once or twice alsah, but I dint git so brokin frum it. We tradid storrees abot the ladees and the place there. I told her abot the time I had to eet yukee porrige fer a whole week cuz of a punishmint fer breking the windah. She sed they still do that whin they punish childrins. Or they mak them rasite versis frum the big book fer all day. I sed they nevar made me do that cuz it woud take me all day jus to rasite one verse. We laffd.
I showd Jerrica a picture of my mum. And she showd me a picture of hers. She says the ladees will make her leave in the summar. I sed mebbe she coud work with me assah maid at the Inn. She sed she woud like that. I think I made a good frend. Me and her have lots in commin.
Taday I woked up and ther was to littal girls looking at me. One of them had her arm all bandiged up an the othar was covered in pok marks. The first littal girl, the one with the brokin arm, her name was Jerrica. The othar littal girl is callt Ranit. They was staring at me with gret big eyes whin I woke up, it kinda startald me. I jumpt and it hurt my leg a bunch to do that. They bakt up and then lafft at me.
I askt them wat they was doing staring at me and they sed that they herd I told storees frum one of the nursis who saw me at the Inn telling storees to othars. They askt if I woud tell them a story. Jerrica did most of the talkin, littal Ranit seemed verree shi shy. She had the chikkin bumps or sumthing lik that she sed, mebbe it was the red poks. I dunno, it was sumthing that seemd funnee sounding.
The littal girls and me told storees and laffd and laffd. It made me feel reel good to make them all smile-ee and stuff. I told them the storee abot the littal ugly girl who went onnah jurnee to find the gold rose so she coud be purty and smart. And I told them anuhthar storee, one abot a lissert and a spidar. They had fun and they hugged me whin the nurse calld them away back to the othar room. It made me sad to see them go away. I hope they com bak and see me agin.
I also found a job today. At leest I hope so. I sent a letter to a plass that was looking fer maids. I told them I was strong and a good worker. I hope they give me a job. Evaryone has a job but me, at leest it seems like that sumtims. The Heelar sed I coud start workin in a few days that my leg was heeling fast and good, but I needid to keep it all stiff and bandiged up for a while.
I saw Rylian yestarday, but aftar talking with them childrins, I dont hardly ramember wat he and I talkt about. It flittid out of my hed, but I think it was sumthing importint. I am glad he is still my frend evin if we kinna be tagethir and have babees. He givd me flowars, I ramember that cuz they are in sum water by my bed. I hope we dint have ahnuthar fite. That woud be bad. I do not like fiting with my frends attall.
I now no wat day it is. That is good. I missd lots of days and stuff that happind around here. I heerd rumers abot stuff but I dunno wat is tru and wat not tru. I saw that the Cappin of the Gard was looking fer infermashin bout Veks. I want to give him wat I no bout them, but then they coud figger out wat I am. It is hard. I want to kill Veks by myself, but I am not strong anuff yet. How can I give infermashin to The gard bout Veks when Veks are in charge of lik evarything?If I left a note, they woud no it was me who left it, I no it. They woud figger it out. And I kinna go to a scribe to have them rite it out fer me. Veree hard situashin I am in.
The heelars fixed my leg up reel good. The cut is all gone frum it with magics, but they had to brek my leg agin to make sure it heeld right on the inside. Leest thats wat they sed. It hurt lots, but they gave me a white drink that made me ralaxed and stuff. It made the hurting stop and all of my mussles noodalee. Then one big nurse held me down on the bed, he had big arms and bad breath. Then anuthar one took my leg and I herd a crak sound and then I felt a pain. Then the pain did not hurt so much and evarything felt bettar. They sed they would help my leg to heel fastar with magics, but I still needid to not move ahrond to much.
I hate hospatals. They are boring. I wish my frends woud com and see me. Mebbe I reelee do not have no mor frends. That maks me sad. Mebbe if I try harder peepul will like me fer reels.
Well, I am back from my vacation. It was an adventure to say the least. All in all, I didn't really do much. Kind of sad really. Ah well. I feel like a mook seeing as I won blog of the month for December and then didn't write anything. Ah well, C'est la vie.
I am back and at home and bored, so I shall be writing everyday again. *fingers crossed* I havn't logged on for a while and it seems I'm pretty far out of the loop, but thats okay. I am dissapointed I missed the ball, but I'll get over it, I'm sure there will be more such events like that because our staff is awesome and involved and everything.
Anyway, see ya'll on the flip side.
**Several previous pages have been burnt or torn out, the paper left ragged and slightly charred.**
I wundar wat day it is. I have bin walking fer a long long tim. It is hard to walk so much I think. I stay away frum Vek cuz I heer them bafer they git tah me. I stay away frum plag peepul cuz I heer the crazees in ther heds bafer I git neer them. I do not like this place of ded peepuls frum long time ago. It feels...bad. This is a test fer me. To see if I am strong and if I can not be scart no mor. I hate being scart all the tim. I do not wanna be week no mor. I went away frum the outpost and the tempal in the city. It maks me sad on the inside to be in those placis. I think evaryone of my frends is gon away frum me. Evin the othars like me...I kinna heer them no mor, evin whin I try reel reel hard to lissin fer them.
Whin I wuz walking, I feld into a big pit in the ground. My leg hurts me lots. I see the sky sum days in the top of the pit. Sum days I think mebbe I jus sleep and sleep and sleep. My tummy hurts me. My leg hurts lots. I burnt sum pagis so it wunt all dark one nite. It wuz the scaree kind of dark. I shoud git out of the pit, my leg hurts me and it is all swelld up. It is a big hol and I can not reech the top evin with my arm stretcht all the way up. I no I need to clim out, but the othar time I feld down and hurt my leg mor.
In my hed I screem as loud as I can to git one of the othars like me to help me. they do not com to help tho. Mebbe they all want me to die cuz they hate me. I no they all think I'm dum. I do not think they like me attall. I try veree hard to be smartar, but I feld into a big pit so I gess I am dum aftar all. Smart peepul do not fall into pits and then git stuck. Stupid...stupid stupid Tzoli. That's wat evaryone thinks and they are rite.
Last nite...I think it was nite...I had a dreem of my mum. She was veree purty, just like she ustah be. Her hair was down and all purty like. She held my hand and huggd me. She sed I had to try hard today, today I had to git out of heer. She sed if I do not do it by mahself, then I shoud just go and die. She always sed things in ways I undarstand them.
I think I heer howling frum sumwhere. I need to clim now. I will live cuz I still have things to do. It dunt matter if I got no frends no mor. I rekkin they dunt care anaway. Jus like Melchior sed, they is all liers and they use me. Frends woud look fer me and save me. I gess Rylian dint love me attall. He givd up eezee. his hart is week. I think my hart is week too, but at leest I try to make it strong. I wanna be strong. I wanna git strong like Melchior sed. To be truthfal and mity and good. I am gunna face things hed on and not run no mor.
I gess a good thing happins whin yah fall into a pit. You think lots.
I gotta clim now. Gotta climb.